I'm Baking my Blues away....

So today was a hot end of the summer kind of day. The Mr. & I did some housework around the house. I have been working alot lately, so I wanted to be prepared for the week. Also this morning, the Mr. made me coffee and a wonderful breakfast. Yup, Breakfast and coffee with a little bit of sarcasm under his breath. This weekend was so much fun, we went to a family reunion for the Mr.'s side of the family! I love hearing all the stories and looking at all there faces to see the resemblance. Everybody looked so happy! Not to mention the food. I'm going to have to start a recipe book. I have been looking through some old recipe books. I need to scan them and make a book. So after the family reunion the Mr. surprised me by taking me to Our beach. The one we got married at. We got there around 3 o'clock in the afternoon and it was beautiful. See it's always windy there and there was no breeze in sight. The beach had changed alot. The water was more inland and had washed the point away. The water was not cold at all. I love walking along the water looking for agates with the Mr.. See before I had meet the Mr., I had only gone to the beach as a little girl with my mom. As I had grown older small things like just going to the beach didn't fit into my life. I wish I could have taken B more to the beach when she was little. The Mr. has such good memories of his childhood at the beach. I'm kinda jealous. Well we are making Our own memories now, I guess. Back to this weekend, when we got home, the Outlaws were at the races. We fell asleep before they got home. It was nice. Today was good, until I spoke to R on the phone. See I love our conversations on the phone because I could just imagine every impression she has with every word that comes out of her mouth. Well, R just turned 14 in May and has decided she is responsible to have a boyfriend.  I do not agree with this at all. My heart just hurts thinking about this. She has informed me that Friday she kissed him 3 times. 3 Times!! I'm just besides myself. I can't help thinking about when I was 14 and all the mistakes I made. Wishing now that I had listened to my mother. B & R's father says I need to be thankful our kids our honest. The X and I have never seen eye to eye. So this evening I have been just feeling so disconnected from my girls. This feeling happens to me at least 3 times a day. This feeling consumes me. I needed something to get my mind off of the horrible news I just got, so I started baking! I'm baking "The OMg my 14yr old daughter kissed a boy 3 times Cupcakes (really just butter pecan mix, frosted with milk chocolate frosting). Some how it just makes it better. Tomorrow is another day.  But for right now another cupcake! Good night.

I'm Diggin' this!

I have always been interested in spilling my guts onto paper. It was my way to cope. Almost like I was writing everything out to see it in front of me. So I can analyze every part of my thought. I was writing to figure out my relationships. I was writing to figure out all my negatives. I have been so fascinated with this blogging, I want to use my writings for my positives. I wanna be heard. I can be on here forever reading about other peoples blogs about triumphs and there home businesses to any thing you can imagine.  I want to be in the blogging community!

I'm looking for mentors! I have a story to be told!

So Since we came back to visit California.....

So since we had to move back to California, we have to stay with the "OutLaws". It was very nice for them to allows to invade on there everyday life. Actually being in the house Mr. has grown up in, is quite a walk down memory lane. See Mr. was born and raised in the home. As well as lost his mother in the home due to Breast Cancer, when he was only 15 yrs old, so see its been quite a ride. Mother Outlaw is his stepmother and she comes with quite the stories. Papa Outlaw is Awesome and sweet. We should call him Grandpa Outlaw, cause when his grand kids are around, his smile warms your heart. Hes like a little kid again! It's been really hot this last month, so we spend must of the days in the pool. I also have been baking too.

P.S. Its kinda fun sleeping in his old room! Heehee

The Children are back in Oregon...

The Girls left on the 18th. It hasn't sunken in yet. It usually happens gradually and it starts with crying. We will be back soon, I keep repeating in my mind. I'm going to miss there first day of school. It's funny, I don't remember my parents dropping my off on my first day of high school. It's just my guilty conscious getting the best of me. They know I love them.